Somewhere else

I need to go somewhere else. It's only because I can't stay here anymore.
I have developed a three layer system, for the people at work.
1) People I love
2) People I hate
3) People I hate to hate
It's because of the group 3 people that I have got to find me a new place to work at. It's people I hate, but they are not really worth my hate. And hate that. I hate that I hate them, because I should have no emotions about them. They should be air. A flash of color in the hallway. A whisper in the dining room. Instead, I actually invest valuable emotional energy hating these people.
I keep telling myself that I don't care anymore, but the reality is that I care. A lot. Too much. Otherwise I wouldn't hate now, would I?
The group 1 people is why I stay. The group 3 people is why I have to go. Group 2 people, well, they exist everywhere, so they don't factor in.
And then there is the promise to finish this project.
Which I hate.
Which bores me.
Which I am completely uninterested in, and absolutely intimidated by it.
Mostly because I have no idea what I'm doing. Not really.
I feel sometimes that I have a mountain to climb. Not a problem, I've climbed many mountains before. Except this time, the foot of the mountain stands at the top of a sheer-faced cliff, with me at the bottom. There is so much I have to do and learn before I can even start climbing the mountain.
Well, today the weekend starts.
Although weekends don't make me feel any better lately.
I definitely need to go somewhere else.